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No one among my friends and relatives knows that I am gay(or at least I think so . And 'am tired to discuss girls with my friends, also I am tired to lie them about "my dates" and sex with some girls. I also feel bad when a girl likes me but I have to find a way around it...I even rejected several girls from my college, so I guess sooner or later they will start to think that I am gay.
It's true, I show no signs, or it's more right to say "NO stereotypes" of gay behaviour: such as I don't act as a girl, I don't wear pink clothes, I am not fashion addicted. Probably I take care too much of myself with fitness, too many parfume sometimes ), but yeah I am sure nobody will define me as the "gay-movie-stereotype".
Sometimes when I am sad about this whole theatre I even wish to be some hot girl, so most hot guys will approach me and so on...
But I like to be a man.

Anyway, thanks